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Hello future, goodbye past.
It's finally the time of the year when I start to reflect upon all the things I've done in the past 12 months, and realise that 2013's probably the best and the worst year for me. It might come across to some of you like, "Why is it your best AND your worst?"
Well, it's the year where some of the most important people left my life, and also the year that taught me the most.
2012 didn't exactly start off on the right note for me, had a fight with my dad over the most trivial matter which kinda screwed up all of our New Year's eve, right before the countdown in Bangkok. It wasn't long before I fell out of a relationship in May, and was completely devoured by the pain I had to deal with. Everything in my life at that point was a complete blur, it had such a detrimental impact on all aspects of my life... I felt so broken. I've never been the most positive person to begin with, and that totally screwed me over. However, life goes on. It made me realise if someone wants to change, they will. And no matter how hard you try to stop that from happening, it's only gonna bring you more disappointments.
It's undeniable that I've changed a lot since then as well, I even got my second tattoo,
which a lot of you have been asking me to share the meaning behind it. XVII stands for 17, and IX stands for 9, in Roman numerals. It signifies the anniversary date of my last relationship.
Many may ask, "What's the point of it when it's over?"
Well, this relationship means a lot to me, and will always be kept close to my heart. Having the date tattooed was in remembrance of what it has taught me, and the reason behind why I had it crossed out was to remind myself that it belongs to the past now.
Moving on was the toughest thing I've ever done in my whole life, it was worse than any of my previous relationships, but I swear I've never been stronger.
I've always been pretty independent, but I tend to be reliant on those people who I feel really attached to.
I constantly felt deprived of company... I rely on everyone I got close to, until a point where I started to feel like I was being a burden, and that was when I tried to shut everyone out.
I felt lost.
But I picked myself up after awhile and started to pay less attention to such frivolous issues. I started school with no intentions of making new friends, I didn't wanna get hurt again, nor did I wanna hurt anyone.
I thought to myself on the first day of school, "I'm just gonna focus on my studies. If I make any friends along the way, it'll just be a bonus."
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Personally, I feel like 2013's the year filled with so much tears, anger and drama. I had more than 5 friends who got out of a long relationship, there were so much drama going online, the haze, the sudden deaths of many, the riots that broke out recently... 2013 went by like a flash before my eyes.
It's coming to an end, but things that happened 6 months ago, felt like they just took place a moment ago.
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Here are some pictures taken this year.
Going blonde.
Chinese New Year.
My birthday.
ABTM's Gala.
Filming for Singapore Celebrity Harlem Shake
Turning green.
USS with my girls.
Ghost Child's Gala.
Grandma's 80th.
My first flea.
Night Safari
Mae's 18th Bday/GC Weekends
Hong Kong trip.
Janice.
Joanna and Shanice.
Picking my outfits for Asia's Style Collection.
First day of school.
School's Fun day.
Halloween.
BFF's 17th bday.
Sydney trip.
Of course, the last eventful occasion was Xmas, which I guess there's nothing much to talk about since I already did, in my past few posts. It was my worst Xmas in my entire life, but from what happened, I've learnt another lesson. Which brings me to my next point.
Remembering a year ago, I wrote a post like this and I ended it off with a new motto in life, "Do what makes you happy and make sure you don't live with regrets." I'm really glad I managed to live by it this year.
I didn't allow my fear and ego to be a hinderance to the things I really want to do. I'm pretty much someone who doesn't give up easily on things that I want, but there's something I realised over the years.
Yea, I know they say, you've to fight for your own happiness, and that's what I've always been trying to do... But it should never be that hard. If the other party's not trying at all, there's no point clinging on to something that doesn't belong to you. You just have to realise that maybe that isn't the right happiness for you.
There will come a point in your life when your priorities are bound to change, and the people who love you enough will embrace your changes and learn to accept you, and similarly, those who don't would leave eventually.
After the break up, I've learnt to take a lot of things in life more seriously, my parents suddenly became extra important to me, I started to cherish everyone around me more and began to like having alone time just watching television and having good food, staying fit... And the happiest thing was scoring 3.7 for my GPA and learning a lot more new things.
My life became more meaningful, even though at times I still struggle between many of the things in life, I'm still learning to be a happier person.
The past few days might have been really bad for me, but I know I'm not giving up that easily.
Before I end this off, I'd like to take this chance to thank all my readers and followers for all the support you guys have given to me over the past couple of months, especially when I was at my lowest. I've been receiving so many emails, tweets, messages of encouragement... And every time I read them, tears will start to well up in my eyes. Thank you for sticking by me after so long, standing up for me when I get hated on, sending your regards to me when I'm feeling down. I'm really grateful for all your love and concern. Virtually, or physically. If it wasn't for you guys, I might not even have survived in this industry until this day. I don't know what I could do for you guys, but I promise I'll get better and work harder for you and myself.
I really hope I'll get a chance to meet all of you in 2014 and thank each of you face to face, as of now...
I'm ready to accept new challenges, brace myself, and welcome the new year.
I know it's still pretty early, so let's bask in the greatness of our last two days of 2012! In case I don't get to update again before the 1st, Happy New Year to all of you.
P/s So many things have changed, but nothing can be compared to my ever-changing hair colour lol.
Labels: New Year, Recap, Views
Hello future, goodbye past.
Sunday, December 29, 2013 | 6:53 PM | 1comments
It's finally the time of the year when I start to reflect upon all the things I've done in the past 12 months, and realise that 2013's probably the best and the worst year for me. It might come across to some of you like, "Why is it your best AND your worst?"
Well, it's the year where some of the most important people left my life, and also the year that taught me the most.
2012 didn't exactly start off on the right note for me, had a fight with my dad over the most trivial matter which kinda screwed up all of our New Year's eve, right before the countdown in Bangkok. It wasn't long before I fell out of a relationship in May, and was completely devoured by the pain I had to deal with. Everything in my life at that point was a complete blur, it had such a detrimental impact on all aspects of my life... I felt so broken. I've never been the most positive person to begin with, and that totally screwed me over. However, life goes on. It made me realise if someone wants to change, they will. And no matter how hard you try to stop that from happening, it's only gonna bring you more disappointments.
It's undeniable that I've changed a lot since then as well, I even got my second tattoo,
which a lot of you have been asking me to share the meaning behind it. XVII stands for 17, and IX stands for 9, in Roman numerals. It signifies the anniversary date of my last relationship.
Many may ask, "What's the point of it when it's over?"
Well, this relationship means a lot to me, and will always be kept close to my heart. Having the date tattooed was in remembrance of what it has taught me, and the reason behind why I had it crossed out was to remind myself that it belongs to the past now.
Moving on was the toughest thing I've ever done in my whole life, it was worse than any of my previous relationships, but I swear I've never been stronger.
I've always been pretty independent, but I tend to be reliant on those people who I feel really attached to.
I constantly felt deprived of company... I rely on everyone I got close to, until a point where I started to feel like I was being a burden, and that was when I tried to shut everyone out.
I felt lost.
But I picked myself up after awhile and started to pay less attention to such frivolous issues. I started school with no intentions of making new friends, I didn't wanna get hurt again, nor did I wanna hurt anyone.
I thought to myself on the first day of school, "I'm just gonna focus on my studies. If I make any friends along the way, it'll just be a bonus."
-
Personally, I feel like 2013's the year filled with so much tears, anger and drama. I had more than 5 friends who got out of a long relationship, there were so much drama going online, the haze, the sudden deaths of many, the riots that broke out recently... 2013 went by like a flash before my eyes.
It's coming to an end, but things that happened 6 months ago, felt like they just took place a moment ago.
-
Here are some pictures taken this year.
Going blonde.
Chinese New Year.
My birthday.
ABTM's Gala.
Filming for Singapore Celebrity Harlem Shake
Turning green.
USS with my girls.
Ghost Child's Gala.
Grandma's 80th.
My first flea.
Night Safari
Mae's 18th Bday/GC Weekends
Hong Kong trip.
Janice.
Joanna and Shanice.
Picking my outfits for Asia's Style Collection.
First day of school.
School's Fun day.
Halloween.
BFF's 17th bday.
Sydney trip.
Of course, the last eventful occasion was Xmas, which I guess there's nothing much to talk about since I already did, in my past few posts. It was my worst Xmas in my entire life, but from what happened, I've learnt another lesson. Which brings me to my next point.
Remembering a year ago, I wrote a post like this and I ended it off with a new motto in life, "Do what makes you happy and make sure you don't live with regrets." I'm really glad I managed to live by it this year.
I didn't allow my fear and ego to be a hinderance to the things I really want to do. I'm pretty much someone who doesn't give up easily on things that I want, but there's something I realised over the years.
Yea, I know they say, you've to fight for your own happiness, and that's what I've always been trying to do... But it should never be that hard. If the other party's not trying at all, there's no point clinging on to something that doesn't belong to you. You just have to realise that maybe that isn't the right happiness for you.
There will come a point in your life when your priorities are bound to change, and the people who love you enough will embrace your changes and learn to accept you, and similarly, those who don't would leave eventually.
After the break up, I've learnt to take a lot of things in life more seriously, my parents suddenly became extra important to me, I started to cherish everyone around me more and began to like having alone time just watching television and having good food, staying fit... And the happiest thing was scoring 3.7 for my GPA and learning a lot more new things.
My life became more meaningful, even though at times I still struggle between many of the things in life, I'm still learning to be a happier person.
The past few days might have been really bad for me, but I know I'm not giving up that easily.
Before I end this off, I'd like to take this chance to thank all my readers and followers for all the support you guys have given to me over the past couple of months, especially when I was at my lowest. I've been receiving so many emails, tweets, messages of encouragement... And every time I read them, tears will start to well up in my eyes. Thank you for sticking by me after so long, standing up for me when I get hated on, sending your regards to me when I'm feeling down. I'm really grateful for all your love and concern. Virtually, or physically. If it wasn't for you guys, I might not even have survived in this industry until this day. I don't know what I could do for you guys, but I promise I'll get better and work harder for you and myself.
I really hope I'll get a chance to meet all of you in 2014 and thank each of you face to face, as of now...
I'm ready to accept new challenges, brace myself, and welcome the new year.
I know it's still pretty early, so let's bask in the greatness of our last two days of 2012! In case I don't get to update again before the 1st, Happy New Year to all of you.
P/s So many things have changed, but nothing can be compared to my ever-changing hair colour lol.
Labels: New Year, Recap, Views
ABOUT ME
Hey there! I share about anything and everything here. You can choose to leave, but I think you should get to know me a little more before you pass your judgement. Check out my FAQ section if it helps.
Who are you?
I'm Naomi, better known as Naomi Neo, and I'm born on the 25th of January 1996. I don't have any siblings, but I'm grateful to have the best parents in the world, who love me unconditionally, and a best friend Trixy who's been there for me for the past 5 years. Currently titled as the youngest "Celebrity Blogger" under my management, Gushcloud - With approximately 124k likes & followers on my Facebook profile and page, 80k followers on twitter and 116k on Instagram currently.
What are you known for?
Honestly, I've no idea what am I known for in majority's eyes, but here's what I presume and hope to be recognised for - I've been writing on all my social platforms since 2009, and got kind of known from writing my thoughts and views on Facebook. My first blog post that went viral was an entry dedicated to my good friend back then, titled "Mothers," in late 2010. Noticing the positive results, I decided to take blogging a little more seriously in 2011. Since then, I've been told that my posts were relatable and inspiring to many, which hence, got me to where I am today.
How well to do is your family? You seem rather spoilt.
I think I'm just average and if you think I'm wealthy rich and spoilt, you're so wrong. I mean yes, my parents do pamper me cos I'm the only child, but I've never taken their money since 2013. And I pay for all my clothes, accessories, make up and 90% of my daily necessities from the money I earn.
What are your stats?
I'm a UK 4 or 6, I've been stuck between 38kg - 40kg. Since I've never really talked about my height, you can deduce I'm exceptionally short and I'm not proud of it - So if you know it, good for you. If you don't, too bad I'm not revealing it. :p
Are you single?
Yes I am. My last relationship was in 2013, and I'm not seeing anyone at the moment.
Do you photoshop your pictures?
No, I don't. Cos I honestly have no idea how to use that crazily complexed software. Ok, it's not very complicated I suppose. I'm just god damn lazy. I only use it to design my texts etc. However, I've been using PicMonkey to edit my pictures. Yeah I know, the main question's still back to whether I "beautify" myself or not. Er, I've no idea what's up with people constantly harping on this issue. The last time I claimed that I don't, was probably in 2012 (which I really didn't back then) But along the way, I figured it was necessary to "upgrade" myself and learn how to. If I can't do plastic surgery, at least make my pictures look chio what. If you know how to, question is, WHY NOT? And, don't you guys wanna see nice pictures too?!?! However I'd like to emphasise that - I do not beautify myself in all my pictures. I only do so when I feel the need to. And 3/4 of the time, I only make adjustments to my gigantic, elephant legs WHICH I admit, I'm very insecure about. So don't tell me my legs are damn nice la, cos some pictures are deceiving. Anyway, I've tons of videos everywhere... Judge for yourself?
Did you have any plastic surgery done?
No I didn't. Firstly, I could not afford to. Secondly, even if I do have the money, my parents are definitely not open to the idea. Thirdly, if I have the money and my parents' consent... OH PLEASE, I would have made myself look a zillion times better than how I am now. So some of you may ask, why is it that I have parallel eyelids. I've mentioned this before, but since some of you are too lazy to find out the truth - Fyi, I am born with double eyelids to begin with, I just wanted to have parallel instead of tapered eyelids. And in case you're really sensitive about it, I'm not saying tapered's not nice... It's just personal preference. In case you don't know what I'm talking about...
So yeah, I tried using eyelid tapes for about 6 months in 2011, and miraculously, have permanent parallel lids since then. I think I'm really lucky. Why do I say so? Cos it doesn't work for everyone.
Don't you think it's better to be natural?
Unfortunately, not everyone's blessed with natural beauty. And even though I've never claimed to be ugly, I've never claimed to be pretty by nature either. I won't deny I've been rather extravagant when it comes to the amount of money I spend on things to beautify my physical appearance, cos sadly, it is important to look good in this society today. You can read more on my views about physical appearance (here). And I don't see anything wrong with wanting to look good or better. Everybody wants to. If you tell me you value natural beauty, I'm cool with it, but if you tell me about your self-righteous logic on how it's wrong to enhance your appearance... Fuck you, go marry a plant since you like it natural.
Don't you think it's better to be natural?
Unfortunately, not everyone's blessed with natural beauty. And even though I've never claimed to be ugly, I've never claimed to be pretty by nature either. I won't deny I've been rather extravagant when it comes to the amount of money I spend on things to beautify my physical appearance, cos sadly, it is important to look good in this society today. You can read more on my views about physical appearance (here). And I don't see anything wrong with wanting to look good or better. Everybody wants to. If you tell me you value natural beauty, I'm cool with it, but if you tell me about your self-righteous logic on how it's wrong to enhance your appearance... Fuck you, go marry a plant since you like it natural.
Are you insecure about your looks?
Yes I am, to a certain extent. I believe you would too, if you have a hundred people reminding you about your flaws every single day. But the thing is, I love myself. So I've accepted that's it's fine not to be perfect.
Do you think you're attention seeking?
Most ridiculous question ever. My question to you is, are you not? This is probably my millionth time saying this, but I think everyone seeks for attention. The only thing that differentiates each of us would be the miles we would travel for it. From a level of - I want attention to Kim Kardashian, it's just a matter of fact how much you want it. And I see absolutely nothing wrong with it unless you're doing something despicable, and harming someone to your own benefits. Besides, no matter how much I love it - It may sound ironic, but I hate unnecessary attention. I only like it when it's for something I worked hard to gain. If you know me well enough, I'm not the kind who would go nude just to get myself to where I want. (Just an example)
How do you deal with your haters?
I've been receiving nasty comments since the day I had a blog, in 2007. I've seen the worst, and it came to a point where it amuses me, because I actually get to find out things I didn't know about myself. I used to care so much, I would cry myself to bed on most nights and I even had issues stepping out of my house at a period of time. However, it took me years to realise how stupid it is to reciprocate to what people who don't me have to say, especially stories/rumours they fabricate. I'm fine with constructive criticisms because I've learnt to take it the positive way - Helping me to improve and get better. Of course it still pisses me off at times when I see untrue stuff about me circulated around by my haters, and I'd either ignore it (if it's nothing too serious) or address it, in other words, stand up for myself (if I find a need to.) And when I ignore it, I don't look at it in a way where I'm a coward or I admit to it - I just find it a waste of time to acknowledge the existence of these people, when most of them are just dying to get my response from their juvenile remarks. Yet when I retaliate, (which I rarely do these days) I only do so when something's getting out of hand. Like if it's tarnishing my reputation or sort. After all, I'm a girl. And I wouldn't "just ignore it" if it affects my name. If I don't stand up for myself, who would? Then again, I don't think that means I care about my haters - I just care about myself enough to want to shut your mouth. Besides, I can stop 1, 2 or 3 people from talking about me, but how many times can I do so? Fact is, you can't please everyone. So it's either you focus on what you have, or waste your life by dwelling on what you don't. And for those friends who decided to leave and hate me for what others have to say? Here's a big... THANK YOU. Haha, if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have realised who my real friends were.
Do you think you deserve what you have now?
Honestly, I've always felt that I don't in a way, cos of how affected I used to be about what people have to say - "There are better looking people out there," "You are not good enough!" etc. However, I've came to a realisation that it's impossible to be the best. Cos there will always be someone better, no matter how good you think you are. And as long as I think I've done my best, I don't see why I don't deserve to be where I am today. I've worked so hard for the things I have, and it's not like everything I have is an overnight success. So too bad if you beg to differ and think that a) I'm only here due to my looks, which I think is completely senseless, cos if it was just about my looks, I wouldn't have been around after so long - Taking into consideration, the ever-rising number of good-looking people there are today. b) it's bcos of what I write, cos I definitely won't claim to be the best writer. Somehow it's still a mystery to me why people still read my blog until today. c) and it's probably cos you don't know me well enough. I definitely agree that someone out there deserves this so much more than I do, but I guess it's true that life's unfair, and I'm sorry I have no control over it.
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