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To the best man in the world
To me, you've always been the man that I look up to, the only man that I believe will never ever leave me in the lurch even if all the guys in the world decide to leave me with a broken heart, and the only man who makes me believe that I'll be able to find my prince charming one day.
I'm pretty sure that one day the right guy will come, and he'll take up those responsibilities of yours. I may love him a lot, and he could end up being the guy who's gonna put the ring on for me, the guy that you'll entrust me to. However, I'd like to give you my word, and also take this chance to remind you that no matter what happens, no one can ever replace your position in my heart.
And that's just how important you are to me.
You wanna know who's my first love? It's you.
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
Since young, I've always had a really strong connection with my dad. To me, he's just like a brother I've never had.
Well, I guess most of you should've guessed by now that I'm the only child in the family; which explains why my parents really devote all their time and attention on me.
I could probably write a book about my mom and I, but since it's Father's day, I guess I just have to give my dad the limelight this time round. (Sorry mom, I still love you! Hehe.)
I used to be so close to my dad that he was actually mistaken for my boyfriend several times before. Hahaha. I know that sounds absurd, but trust me that I'm not lying!
It's like, we could head to the cinema to catch a movie, go for a swim and even share the same bed. (s.l.e.e.p) All of these without the presence of my mom, just my dad and I.
I've lived in a 2-room flat for the first half of my life, and subsequently my dad slogged his ass off in order for us to live in a better environment, even though we're just a family of three.
We moved in to my current home when I was about 7, and I remember how my dad would greet me with a small gift after work occasionally, how he'd grab me up with his arms and kiss me on my forehead.
Unfortunately, as I grew older, we grew apart as well.
You know how most of us have that rebellious teenage phase? Yeaaaaap, that's right. I had mine pretty early. Lol.
Disappointments over disappointments. I wouldn't say I've committed the worst sins in the entire world, but I'd say I did enough to break my dad's trust for me once, for a really long period of time.
Things got really tense between my dad and I, to an extent where I didn't wanna come home bcos I had no idea how I should face him.
I broke his heart, and I broke mine too. (Let's just take a moment and play the tune of Christina.A's Hurt while we re-read that line and allow that feeling to sink in.... Ok kidding.)
I'm not proud of all the things I've done, and it took me quite awhile to learn and realize my mistakes.
I've hated him, said the nastiest things that I don't really mean, hurt him and betrayed his trust so many times before. However, no matter how incorrigible everyone thought I was, despite the uncountable number of times he claimed that he has given up on me, he never did.
Just like any other ordinary man, he's a bit of a chauvinist. (Dad pls don't kill me when you see this, but I know you won't cos you love me too much :p) But what I love most about him is that he's never failed my mom and I before. He's been a great husband and a great father.
He's the kind that takes notice of the little things that I say, and the casual remarks that I make on the things that I wish for, then does or buys them for me. Yet, he appears to be indifferent and faintly aloof on the surface at times.
He can be a little too blunt sometimes, and say things that I don't wish to hear, but now that I'm pretty much accustomed to that, I really appreciate all the little advises that he gives. In fact, I'd rather listen to un-sugarcoated words than to know that he's patronising me.
I know that we probably won't be able to return to how close we were in the past, but I'm glad that he's just like my best friend now.
Some recollections of the past...
Teaching me how to build sandcastles!!!
How you held my hand to feed the little lambs bcos I was so afraid to even pat them. (Did I just made a rhyme?)
How you used to drive to some random field to play my fav ball-game with me.
How you'd always accompany me to take the rides that I want bcos my mom hates to.
I'm aware that I haven't been able to spend quality time with you even though I've always promised to. I'm also aware that I haven't been the best you've ever wanted me to be even though you claim that to you, I'm always the best.
But I've never stopped trying.
You'd wake up way before your work time just to send me to school everyday. You're always at my beck and call, regardless of how busy you are at that moment. You'd stay up till 3am in the morning just to comfort me over the phone when I was really down in Hong Kong. You'd never scold me even if I've failed my papers just bcos you don't want me to be disheartened. You'd always protect me. You'd secretly pay attention when I tell you about my cravings, then buy them for me the next day. You'd send me long texts just to remind me how much you love and care for me.
Most importantly, you've always loved me unconditionally, and that's why I love you dad.
You know how as we all start to grow older, we don't realize that our parents are actually ageing too?
We tend to take our kin for granted, thinking that they'll always be there, but people will all end up leaving eventually. That's the awful truth.
It's funny how when I was still a child I used to want my dad around wherever I went, then I grew older wishing that he never existed, but now I'm back to realising how dear he is to me.
I believe we've all heard countless of advises on how we should cherish those people who are always sticking around us, but I know that sometimes taking someone who cares too much for granted is rather inevitable too. I guess you've to lose what you have in order to realize what you miss.
I told my dad that I was afraid; I fear that if my mom and him were to ever leave me before I get married, I probably won't be able to survive on my own. I'm really afraid of being alone, and as much as I think that I'm independent, I actually rely a lot on my parents. A lot more than I think I actually do.
Dad, I'm not exactly sure if this is gonna be your ideal Father's day gift, but on top of that, I know that I wanna do well and succeed one day to be able to provide you an even better life just like how you used to when I was a child.
I think you'd rather that compared to like...... a Mont Blanc watch right? I'm sure you don't want me to spend that unnecessary money...... (Haha or maybe not :p)
I know actions speak louder than words, and I'll prove it to you that your years of effort won't go in vain.
Whatever it is, thanks for being so forgiving. Thanks for watching me fall, but at the same time taught me how to stand tall. Thanks for taking in and accepting all my flaws. Thanks for being so patient towards me. Thanks for being the best dad in the world.
I love you. (And I know you love me too)
Father's Day shouldn't be the only day that you decide to be filial, it's just a special day to show extra love to your dad and do things you've never done before.
Cos just as important as your mom, you wouldn't be here without your dad too.
Labels: Father's Day
To the best man in the world
To me, you've always been the man that I look up to, the only man that I believe will never ever leave me in the lurch even if all the guys in the world decide to leave me with a broken heart, and the only man who makes me believe that I'll be able to find my prince charming one day.
I'm pretty sure that one day the right guy will come, and he'll take up those responsibilities of yours. I may love him a lot, and he could end up being the guy who's gonna put the ring on for me, the guy that you'll entrust me to. However, I'd like to give you my word, and also take this chance to remind you that no matter what happens, no one can ever replace your position in my heart.
And that's just how important you are to me.
You wanna know who's my first love? It's you.
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
Since young, I've always had a really strong connection with my dad. To me, he's just like a brother I've never had.
Well, I guess most of you should've guessed by now that I'm the only child in the family; which explains why my parents really devote all their time and attention on me.
I could probably write a book about my mom and I, but since it's Father's day, I guess I just have to give my dad the limelight this time round. (Sorry mom, I still love you! Hehe.)
I used to be so close to my dad that he was actually mistaken for my boyfriend several times before. Hahaha. I know that sounds absurd, but trust me that I'm not lying!
It's like, we could head to the cinema to catch a movie, go for a swim and even share the same bed. (s.l.e.e.p) All of these without the presence of my mom, just my dad and I.
I've lived in a 2-room flat for the first half of my life, and subsequently my dad slogged his ass off in order for us to live in a better environment, even though we're just a family of three.
We moved in to my current home when I was about 7, and I remember how my dad would greet me with a small gift after work occasionally, how he'd grab me up with his arms and kiss me on my forehead.
Unfortunately, as I grew older, we grew apart as well.
You know how most of us have that rebellious teenage phase? Yeaaaaap, that's right. I had mine pretty early. Lol.
Disappointments over disappointments. I wouldn't say I've committed the worst sins in the entire world, but I'd say I did enough to break my dad's trust for me once, for a really long period of time.
Things got really tense between my dad and I, to an extent where I didn't wanna come home bcos I had no idea how I should face him.
I broke his heart, and I broke mine too. (Let's just take a moment and play the tune of Christina.A's Hurt while we re-read that line and allow that feeling to sink in.... Ok kidding.)
I'm not proud of all the things I've done, and it took me quite awhile to learn and realize my mistakes.
I've hated him, said the nastiest things that I don't really mean, hurt him and betrayed his trust so many times before. However, no matter how incorrigible everyone thought I was, despite the uncountable number of times he claimed that he has given up on me, he never did.
Just like any other ordinary man, he's a bit of a chauvinist. (Dad pls don't kill me when you see this, but I know you won't cos you love me too much :p) But what I love most about him is that he's never failed my mom and I before. He's been a great husband and a great father.
He's the kind that takes notice of the little things that I say, and the casual remarks that I make on the things that I wish for, then does or buys them for me. Yet, he appears to be indifferent and faintly aloof on the surface at times.
He can be a little too blunt sometimes, and say things that I don't wish to hear, but now that I'm pretty much accustomed to that, I really appreciate all the little advises that he gives. In fact, I'd rather listen to un-sugarcoated words than to know that he's patronising me.
I know that we probably won't be able to return to how close we were in the past, but I'm glad that he's just like my best friend now.
Some recollections of the past...
Teaching me how to build sandcastles!!!
How you held my hand to feed the little lambs bcos I was so afraid to even pat them. (Did I just made a rhyme?)
How you used to drive to some random field to play my fav ball-game with me.
How you'd always accompany me to take the rides that I want bcos my mom hates to.
I'm aware that I haven't been able to spend quality time with you even though I've always promised to. I'm also aware that I haven't been the best you've ever wanted me to be even though you claim that to you, I'm always the best.
But I've never stopped trying.
You'd wake up way before your work time just to send me to school everyday. You're always at my beck and call, regardless of how busy you are at that moment. You'd stay up till 3am in the morning just to comfort me over the phone when I was really down in Hong Kong. You'd never scold me even if I've failed my papers just bcos you don't want me to be disheartened. You'd always protect me. You'd secretly pay attention when I tell you about my cravings, then buy them for me the next day. You'd send me long texts just to remind me how much you love and care for me.
Most importantly, you've always loved me unconditionally, and that's why I love you dad.
You know how as we all start to grow older, we don't realize that our parents are actually ageing too?
We tend to take our kin for granted, thinking that they'll always be there, but people will all end up leaving eventually. That's the awful truth.
It's funny how when I was still a child I used to want my dad around wherever I went, then I grew older wishing that he never existed, but now I'm back to realising how dear he is to me.
I believe we've all heard countless of advises on how we should cherish those people who are always sticking around us, but I know that sometimes taking someone who cares too much for granted is rather inevitable too. I guess you've to lose what you have in order to realize what you miss.
I told my dad that I was afraid; I fear that if my mom and him were to ever leave me before I get married, I probably won't be able to survive on my own. I'm really afraid of being alone, and as much as I think that I'm independent, I actually rely a lot on my parents. A lot more than I think I actually do.
Dad, I'm not exactly sure if this is gonna be your ideal Father's day gift, but on top of that, I know that I wanna do well and succeed one day to be able to provide you an even better life just like how you used to when I was a child.
I think you'd rather that compared to like...... a Mont Blanc watch right? I'm sure you don't want me to spend that unnecessary money...... (Haha or maybe not :p)
I know actions speak louder than words, and I'll prove it to you that your years of effort won't go in vain.
Whatever it is, thanks for being so forgiving. Thanks for watching me fall, but at the same time taught me how to stand tall. Thanks for taking in and accepting all my flaws. Thanks for being so patient towards me. Thanks for being the best dad in the world.
I love you. (And I know you love me too)
Father's Day shouldn't be the only day that you decide to be filial, it's just a special day to show extra love to your dad and do things you've never done before.
Cos just as important as your mom, you wouldn't be here without your dad too.
Labels: Father's Day
ABOUT ME
Hey there! I share about anything and everything here. You can choose to leave, but I think you should get to know me a little more before you pass your judgement. Check out my FAQ section if it helps.
Who are you?
I'm Naomi, better known as Naomi Neo, and I'm born on the 25th of January 1996. I don't have any siblings, but I'm grateful to have the best parents in the world, who love me unconditionally, and a best friend Trixy who's been there for me for the past 5 years. Currently titled as the youngest "Celebrity Blogger" under my management, Gushcloud - With approximately 124k likes & followers on my Facebook profile and page, 80k followers on twitter and 116k on Instagram currently.
What are you known for?
Honestly, I've no idea what am I known for in majority's eyes, but here's what I presume and hope to be recognised for - I've been writing on all my social platforms since 2009, and got kind of known from writing my thoughts and views on Facebook. My first blog post that went viral was an entry dedicated to my good friend back then, titled "Mothers," in late 2010. Noticing the positive results, I decided to take blogging a little more seriously in 2011. Since then, I've been told that my posts were relatable and inspiring to many, which hence, got me to where I am today.
How well to do is your family? You seem rather spoilt.
I think I'm just average and if you think I'm wealthy rich and spoilt, you're so wrong. I mean yes, my parents do pamper me cos I'm the only child, but I've never taken their money since 2013. And I pay for all my clothes, accessories, make up and 90% of my daily necessities from the money I earn.
What are your stats?
I'm a UK 4 or 6, I've been stuck between 38kg - 40kg. Since I've never really talked about my height, you can deduce I'm exceptionally short and I'm not proud of it - So if you know it, good for you. If you don't, too bad I'm not revealing it. :p
Are you single?
Yes I am. My last relationship was in 2013, and I'm not seeing anyone at the moment.
Do you photoshop your pictures?
No, I don't. Cos I honestly have no idea how to use that crazily complexed software. Ok, it's not very complicated I suppose. I'm just god damn lazy. I only use it to design my texts etc. However, I've been using PicMonkey to edit my pictures. Yeah I know, the main question's still back to whether I "beautify" myself or not. Er, I've no idea what's up with people constantly harping on this issue. The last time I claimed that I don't, was probably in 2012 (which I really didn't back then) But along the way, I figured it was necessary to "upgrade" myself and learn how to. If I can't do plastic surgery, at least make my pictures look chio what. If you know how to, question is, WHY NOT? And, don't you guys wanna see nice pictures too?!?! However I'd like to emphasise that - I do not beautify myself in all my pictures. I only do so when I feel the need to. And 3/4 of the time, I only make adjustments to my gigantic, elephant legs WHICH I admit, I'm very insecure about. So don't tell me my legs are damn nice la, cos some pictures are deceiving. Anyway, I've tons of videos everywhere... Judge for yourself?
Did you have any plastic surgery done?
No I didn't. Firstly, I could not afford to. Secondly, even if I do have the money, my parents are definitely not open to the idea. Thirdly, if I have the money and my parents' consent... OH PLEASE, I would have made myself look a zillion times better than how I am now. So some of you may ask, why is it that I have parallel eyelids. I've mentioned this before, but since some of you are too lazy to find out the truth - Fyi, I am born with double eyelids to begin with, I just wanted to have parallel instead of tapered eyelids. And in case you're really sensitive about it, I'm not saying tapered's not nice... It's just personal preference. In case you don't know what I'm talking about...
So yeah, I tried using eyelid tapes for about 6 months in 2011, and miraculously, have permanent parallel lids since then. I think I'm really lucky. Why do I say so? Cos it doesn't work for everyone.
Don't you think it's better to be natural?
Unfortunately, not everyone's blessed with natural beauty. And even though I've never claimed to be ugly, I've never claimed to be pretty by nature either. I won't deny I've been rather extravagant when it comes to the amount of money I spend on things to beautify my physical appearance, cos sadly, it is important to look good in this society today. You can read more on my views about physical appearance (here). And I don't see anything wrong with wanting to look good or better. Everybody wants to. If you tell me you value natural beauty, I'm cool with it, but if you tell me about your self-righteous logic on how it's wrong to enhance your appearance... Fuck you, go marry a plant since you like it natural.
Don't you think it's better to be natural?
Unfortunately, not everyone's blessed with natural beauty. And even though I've never claimed to be ugly, I've never claimed to be pretty by nature either. I won't deny I've been rather extravagant when it comes to the amount of money I spend on things to beautify my physical appearance, cos sadly, it is important to look good in this society today. You can read more on my views about physical appearance (here). And I don't see anything wrong with wanting to look good or better. Everybody wants to. If you tell me you value natural beauty, I'm cool with it, but if you tell me about your self-righteous logic on how it's wrong to enhance your appearance... Fuck you, go marry a plant since you like it natural.
Are you insecure about your looks?
Yes I am, to a certain extent. I believe you would too, if you have a hundred people reminding you about your flaws every single day. But the thing is, I love myself. So I've accepted that's it's fine not to be perfect.
Do you think you're attention seeking?
Most ridiculous question ever. My question to you is, are you not? This is probably my millionth time saying this, but I think everyone seeks for attention. The only thing that differentiates each of us would be the miles we would travel for it. From a level of - I want attention to Kim Kardashian, it's just a matter of fact how much you want it. And I see absolutely nothing wrong with it unless you're doing something despicable, and harming someone to your own benefits. Besides, no matter how much I love it - It may sound ironic, but I hate unnecessary attention. I only like it when it's for something I worked hard to gain. If you know me well enough, I'm not the kind who would go nude just to get myself to where I want. (Just an example)
How do you deal with your haters?
I've been receiving nasty comments since the day I had a blog, in 2007. I've seen the worst, and it came to a point where it amuses me, because I actually get to find out things I didn't know about myself. I used to care so much, I would cry myself to bed on most nights and I even had issues stepping out of my house at a period of time. However, it took me years to realise how stupid it is to reciprocate to what people who don't me have to say, especially stories/rumours they fabricate. I'm fine with constructive criticisms because I've learnt to take it the positive way - Helping me to improve and get better. Of course it still pisses me off at times when I see untrue stuff about me circulated around by my haters, and I'd either ignore it (if it's nothing too serious) or address it, in other words, stand up for myself (if I find a need to.) And when I ignore it, I don't look at it in a way where I'm a coward or I admit to it - I just find it a waste of time to acknowledge the existence of these people, when most of them are just dying to get my response from their juvenile remarks. Yet when I retaliate, (which I rarely do these days) I only do so when something's getting out of hand. Like if it's tarnishing my reputation or sort. After all, I'm a girl. And I wouldn't "just ignore it" if it affects my name. If I don't stand up for myself, who would? Then again, I don't think that means I care about my haters - I just care about myself enough to want to shut your mouth. Besides, I can stop 1, 2 or 3 people from talking about me, but how many times can I do so? Fact is, you can't please everyone. So it's either you focus on what you have, or waste your life by dwelling on what you don't. And for those friends who decided to leave and hate me for what others have to say? Here's a big... THANK YOU. Haha, if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have realised who my real friends were.
Do you think you deserve what you have now?
Honestly, I've always felt that I don't in a way, cos of how affected I used to be about what people have to say - "There are better looking people out there," "You are not good enough!" etc. However, I've came to a realisation that it's impossible to be the best. Cos there will always be someone better, no matter how good you think you are. And as long as I think I've done my best, I don't see why I don't deserve to be where I am today. I've worked so hard for the things I have, and it's not like everything I have is an overnight success. So too bad if you beg to differ and think that a) I'm only here due to my looks, which I think is completely senseless, cos if it was just about my looks, I wouldn't have been around after so long - Taking into consideration, the ever-rising number of good-looking people there are today. b) it's bcos of what I write, cos I definitely won't claim to be the best writer. Somehow it's still a mystery to me why people still read my blog until today. c) and it's probably cos you don't know me well enough. I definitely agree that someone out there deserves this so much more than I do, but I guess it's true that life's unfair, and I'm sorry I have no control over it.
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